Medication doesn’t work.

It is so demoralising to constantly see success stories of people getting diagnosed and prescribed medication and the medication instantly works for them.

I know I shouldn’t compare myself but I’ve been diagnosed since I was 21 and I STILL haven’t found the right medication/dosage at age 23. Not to mention I have PTSD so when I take stimulants it amplifies my symptoms. I am just so frustrated and disillusioned.

I don’t know what standard of expectation to set for myself since I’m unmedicated. To what extent am I being lazy/undisciplined and to what extent is it my ADHD??

I tried Ritalin and it just made me even more hyper and unsettled. I don’t know if this is common for inattentive people?? I’ve tried a host of other medications as well, each one with their own unique problem. At this point, I know the issue is with me but literally don’t know how to solve it and neither does my psychiatrist. He literally asked me what I should do as if he is not the one with the expertise!!

But yeah I am very frustrated. And yes, I am sure I have ADHD.