being the "ugly friend"

being the ugly friend is unbearable. i'm best friends with this gorgeous girl and i'm always so jealous of her bc she never has to beg for compliments, all of the boys like her, she's popular, never gets ignored... she's everything i want to be.

i'm only 17 but i feel like nothing is going to changed. i'm going to be relegated to the ugly fat friend my entire life. people will walk past me to talk to my prettier friends at parties because i'm not worthy of any attention. it's inevitable. there's nothing i can do.

she has told me over and over again that i'm beautiful or whatever, cool, but the rest of the world seems to disagree. i think i'm going to die alone.