I'm so jealous of people with good parents

I know no one's parents are perfect but oh my God it would be so nice to have parents that could actually fucking parent.

I see the realative ease with which they go about their lives and I crave that. They don't have a whole childhood to work through and a whole slew of debilitating mental disorders to deal with.

Even my "safe" parent was an enabler and insane, negligent, and dismissive at other times.

Some people don't have to go through years of therapy, depression, suicidal thoughts, shame, paranoia, and pain and I wish that was me