There are things that you shouldn't be aware of; don't try to learn everything.

I was stuck in a mindset of: "more knowledge is better", without thinking about which knowledge and how better. I saw something and wondered and had to find out more about it. And now, I think I am full of useless awareness. When I learned something new, I thought that I am one or two steps ahead of people not knowing it. However, there are infinite steps in every direction, and my two steps are meaningless in the grand scheme of things. It is actually harmful in a sense that it made me thought I was know more, I was better than others. Slowly, I stopped listening to others and could only follow my own steps. "Your steps are full of holes", "Your steps didn't account for Tom's feelings", etc. Now that I think back, the person might not have accounted for those things, but since they followed the rules, the choice has gone through trials and error by millions. I shouldn't have been so arrogant. In a sense, you take less risk when you ignore all the risk that you can't see, you just have to follow the crowd. If you want to be pioneer, be really really sure that you can do it, because history almost never shows those who fail, but I'm guessing that it's a lot.