What are your experiences with benzodiazepines?

I’ve been left with no choice but to go down this path. I can no way afford to mess around with my life so I will be self medicating my way to success. I basically want to function like a normal person.

So I would like to know about peoples experiences with them. Especially with Xanax, diazepam and propranolol.

I’ve done some research about them and I know you can’t take them long term since you become resistant to it and you need more and more. Im also aware of potential damage I will be doing to my brain and CNS.

So what has your experiences been with them? Will it kill my libido? That’s an important one lol

Edit: before anyone says try therapy and all that. I’ve been doing it for months and nothing.