Have you reached acceptance of being FAW?

I’m so tired of being a spectator in everyone’s life but it’s all ive known. My therapist keeps telling me to hold out hope but im not making progress and i can’t overcome the barriers. I feel like she’s setting me up for failure for false hope. I’m trying to accept my FAW status, but all it leaves me to do is grieve all that ive missed out on and what my future will never be.