I need to quit being a sucker

Idk why whenever I get a crush on a girl I end up putting way to much value in them subconsciously. It’s not even like I’ll go out of my way to set them up so high it’s just what ends up happening as a result of how my brain perceives them.

I’m catching myself resorting to high school shit now, on some constantly checking my phone for a reply type shit. It’s worse when you know deep down they don’t see you in the same way yet you STILL do sucker shit like that. This puts you in such a bad spot too because it’s obviously one sided, you’re making someone a priority that only sees you as a semi-option, maybe.

I gotta get out of this weak ass mindset, I’ve been doing good for years with moderate crushes here and there then this one girl comes along and suddenly my brain doesn’t know when I’m just seen as leftovers. It’s worse when you have to work with the girl and see her constantly… man I’m going through it out here. I gotta consciously make a change though I can’t keep going out sad like this.