Guys I need help, please click..

So I’m going to out myself 🥲, I’m a teenager and I need advice QUICKLY. So there doing that merch restock and I wanna buy something.. but my mom doesn’t know I listen to haunted mound and she wouldn’t allow me to listen to haunted mound. Also I changed my Apple Music settings so I’m not even allowed access to those songs 😢. Any advice??