I hate my friends for getting pregnant

I’m 33 years old. My husband and I have been doing ivf for 2,5 years. In that time almost all of my friends have gotten pregnant. Some even managed to get pregnant again after having the first baby… I am so jealous I can’t even function. I don’t want to see my pregnant friends because I’m so jealous of what they have. And I don’t want to see my none pregnant friends because I am afraid they will make a pregnancy announcement. It’s gotten to a point where my heart starts racing just by getting a message from certain people because I think they will announce being pregnant. It’s like the bitterness and jealousy is taking over my entire life and ruining all my friendships. And I know that I’m a small person for not being happy for them. And I know that others pregnancies doesn’t affect my chances of getting pregnant. But I just don’t know how to let go of this feeling.