Penis envy??

I’m a AFAB/cis lesbian but really have a need and want to feel what it’s like to have a REAL penis and use it (in the heterosexual sense) if you know what I mean. I want to feel what that’s like. I know that straps replicate the actions of it, but it’s not really the same in terms of feeling/vibe/sensation. What’s the best way to approach this and feel how I want to feel?