Struggling with doubt

I am feeling stuck. Lately I feel like I simply cannot shake this lingering feeling of doubt as I’m manifesting. I’ve tried so much, but it’s like I’m being met with so much resistance. I have journaled, done deep shadow work, tried to unearth why I can’t let myself just let go of control and allow things to just attract like I have in the past. The worst part is that I have gotten to the root of a lot of my issues through shadow work, but now that I’m aware of them it’s like I don’t know what to do with it. I have gone as far as to take a page of written fears with me to a lake to burn it and let the ashes go into the water to try and release it both physically and spiritually. I can’t even meditate anymore without yawning and feeling so uncomfortable that I can’t relax fully, which wasn’t a problem before. I even have had insane lucid dreams that just play all of my fears on repeat. I have been able to manifest so many amazing things into my life in the past, but after a few years of not practicing, I have tried to re-enter into that energy but it’s like I can’t trust myself in the same way anymore.

I just don’t know what to do. If anyone has dealt with this and has any advice I would be so grateful.