What makes you want to take your life seriously

Sorry I’m drunk. I just wish I took my life seriously but I never had a drive too, it feels like everyone was born with that drive to finish college and get a good job but I dropped out and I’m stuck in retail, I honestly don’t mind living like this but it seems like I’m just behind from everyone

I wish I had to drive, I wish I had the instinct to know that being stuck in retail is the worst thing ever, I never had the fear of being stuck in retail but I know that fear motivated a lot of people to stick through college, I wish I had it.

My parents raised me so chill, they didn’t force me to study so I never developed the habit but all my siblings did for some reason that’s why I think it’s a biological instinct lucky people have, I just wasn’t lucky, I hate myself