I really feel like giving up…

I literally pushed myself finally to go get help so I can start a MAT program today that the city offers for free and when I get here they tell me that the doctor is only here Tuesdays and Thursdays like brooooo I’m withdrawing I can’t wait until Tuesday wtf…I’m really really overwhelmed that when I finally get the courage to get help and do what i need to do, I get absolutely shitted on….im feeling very shitty right now and idk what to do I’m still here waiting to talk to the nurse….

“Update”- the nurse literally told me that the only way to get medication is to be seen by the doctor and that I have to wait until Tuesday to get any meds like suboxone from said doctor…so she literally told me to just use until my Tuesday appointment and gave me a shitload of narcan smh I’m so over this….