should I just join the women's team?

I love volleyball and I'd really like to learn how to play. However, since I am pre-everything, only out to my friends, and will probably be unable to transition for a long time, I'll just be grouped with the other girls. I got really bad social dysphoria, and I really wish I could join the guys, but it is what it is. I don't know if there's a gender neutral team nearby. What do I do?