Joining was a mistake

I have a disgusting body, my face is ugly and I have no friends. I am also cowardly and weak. I joined the marines hoping that it would help me get stronger and tougher and help me feel a sense of belonging and also make lifelong friends but as it turns out they pretty much just pass everyone through boot camp. I failed the pull up section of the pft( I can’t even do one pull up) and I can barely run, my run time was 31;21 in boot camp, my di’s cheated for me and now I’m stuck in at fort sill learning a job I hate. The military has made my life worse in every way. I’ve been working out consistently since 2022 and I have never seen a single increase in strength, muscle mass or confidence. I’ve made no friends during my time in the corps so far. I joined in early September of 2024 and don’t have the contact info of a single marine besides my recruiter. No one wants to be my friend because of how weak I am. ATP I feel no loyalty to the corps. I hate the marine corps, I hate marines, I hate myself, I hate my life and i don’t even know what to do. I am completely hopeless.