hygiene sensory overload: showering

i have always struggled with showers and it never occurred to me that it might be sensory overload. 25F

i like to exfoliate my body regularly (deadskin makes me what to skin myself) and my skin is sensitive, usually i exfoliate but then i have to post shower apply creams and oils. i have never seem to find the proper one.

i hate it if its sticky and i hate it if any hair falls and touch my body. yesterday i almost cried because my skin was itching me and im sticky and dust and hair and its really distressing like i usually vacuum the hair out and cover my hair and brush in the shower and i really have to exfoliate otherwise the dead-skin annoys me and i hyper fixate on it. but then i got to deal with the sticky creams i’m not sure what soothes me and most times i wish i was bald. oh if only i was bald.