My preferences: am I doomed?

On this day, I always think what have I done wrong to not have anyone? Every year I’ve made improvements to myself. Most importantly I know how to socialise with people more now, and know to take an indifferent approach when meeting new people, so regardless of the result, whether they want to meet me again, for whatever it is we have in common, or not, I don’t care. It’s helped me tonnes. Onto my preferences and my reasonings for each, as best as I can.

She must be ginger (if you don’t know it’s a cute nickname for those people with red/ orange coloured hair). To me I think now I know what attracts me the most about them. They stand out in the best way! So different and I really like those sort of colours in general. Eg. Sunsets, Fanta, orange and red coloured pencils, cars, McLaren. Also I find they often wear my favourite colour: green.

I want her to have a soft voice. My ears may not be perfect with voice volume, however, they are very good at hearing tones of voice. To me, I want to feel relaxed and able to show the real me to someone who I feel safe with. So far, I’ve not come across that. Therefore if she mostly has a soft voice I am far more receptive to this, and will be more communicative with someone like that.

I want her to accept my hobbies as what they are, regardless if she wants to join in or not, I’m doing them. Nothing beats a round of golf on a Sunday morning.

I want her to show me something that I’ve not seen in a woman yet. Her ability to make me see the positive things in the world. The world is such a dark and depressing place. If she can help me see the good things, I will have some reason to keep pushing on.

I’d love her to join me to go to theme parks or rivers. They are my favourite things to ever experience in the world. Nothing makes me feel more relaxed than water and streams. Nothing makes me more excited than the thrill of theme parks. If she doesn’t I don’t mind.

She must be able to provide peace for me. If that means leave me alone when I get home for an hour to read, let me do it. Then we get 2 greetings, it’s the best.

Here’s my questions to you: 1. Am I doomed? 2. Are my preferences too ridiculous? 3. Are there some things that I could do with letting go? 4. What are some hobbies I could invest in that’s attractive?