i really hate being an adult

i went to the dentist today for the first time in at least 6 years. i was really embarrassed to go. taking care of my teeth has always been a battle, and brushing them once a day has been the most i can bring myself to do lately. my parents never took me to the dentist as a kid, only when i needed braces, and when i got two of my wisdom teeth out at 17. i’m 24 now, and finally had enough courage to make the appointment. i have two big cavities in my remaining wisdom teeth (which they gave me a referral to get removed since my mouth is also too small), and a couple small ones between my teeth from not flossing. i cried in the dentist’s office. it was so embarrassing.

like so many people here i’ve got mental health issues, and taking care of myself is a huge struggle for me. i’ve been really beating myself up. i’m also so angry at my parents for never taking me, and not teaching me how to be an adult.

i’m going to try to create a goal to floss every night, and pray i can keep myself accountable. i just don’t know how to keep up with all of the demands of being an adult. cleaning my room, taking my meds, brushing my teeth, showering regularly, taking care of my cats, paying bills, working… it’s all just too much. i want to crawl in my bed and stay there forever.

EDIT: i didn’t expect this many people to reply and i’m finding it hard to keep up and reply to you all. just know that i’m reading every single one of your comments and i appreciate you all SO much.

EDIT 2: all of your comments gave me the courage to floss my teeth today! i might not start with every day, but every couple days might work for me.

EDIT 3: i called the dental surgeon’s office today and they scheduled me to get my wisdom teeth out monday morning! i can’t believe i got an appointment so soon!