Vent

I am 4wpo and I’m struggling to be honest.

I suffer from anxiety and depression(health anxiety in the last year is horrible). I have been dealing with lower pelvic pain, pain in my hips, and constipation or the opposite. I finally called my doctor, she did blood counts, sent urine off to make sure no infection, she did an internal ultrasound to check for healing or issues with my cuff and sending me for a ultrasound of my leg to rule out blood clot.. she said she always rules out the scary stuff to be safe.

Cuff looks good she said, blood count normal and the rest we wait for. But I feel so worried and scared and the what if there is an issue and just all the things.

Also I have barely been leaving my apartment other than work and it’s just beating me down. I want my life back I want to not be scared of everything. I really want happiness again. I trust my doctor it’s just the anxiety speaks louder.

I came here because we are all walking a similar journey and someone will relate.. I just need to vent it out!