He’s still lying

3 weeks out from d day and he lied right to my face again, multiple times, just now in this one conversation. I have been crying my eyes out in front of him, literally just last night I was sobbing and having a panic attack bc the worst part of all of this is he lied. We're married!!! He knew I consider porn cheating and he lied, I thought he was so open w me. And now that he's seen how he has broken my heart and claims to want my trust back, he just lied right to my face and I could tell and had to force the truth out of him, and then he also avoided truthfully disclosing info bc I didn't phrase the question in the perfect way for him to have to confess. We fought last night about these girls he was friends with in high school (we're both pretty young) and it's not rly important to explain the fight but tonight he got this CREEPY ASS look in his eye and talked about fantasizing about parts of her body---but not her. The look of desire that I thought was reserved only for me. I know he's been checking ppl out, looking at content, watching porn, etc, but I've never seen that look in his eye when it wasn't about me, and for some reason I never imagined it could be for anyone but me. I love my husband so much, I thought he was the best man I ever met and I respected him and trusted him, I fully depend on him financially. I have been so unable to rectify the person I thought he was with what he's done, but now I've seen him right in front of me with that look, and he lied and tried to manipulate me. My heart is broken, how can I trust him? He can't be like all the guys we read about on here, I thought he meant it when he said he didn't want to lie to me anymore 💔