Pondering disability

I’ve been struggling a lot lately, with my brain fog being significant. The pain is pretty gnarly, but I try not to let it stop me. The brain fog on the other hand is hard to press through, especially when it comes to work. I am starting to wonder if I should just take a leave of absence and use disability insurance (through the company) until we “find my zen medication” as the rheumatologist says. Ideally, things will get to where I can “be myself” again (or as close as possible) and go back to work. My doctor is willing to sign off on it, but I’ve heard that the process of getting approved can be horrible. Plus, there would be a gap in my income.

It’s a hard decision to make and it’s really stressing me out.