When I’m not busy my mental health tanks.

Honestly I just want a hug right now.

I (18F) pride myself on being busy. I’m finishing college early, I work a bunch of part time jobs, and I’m a full time student. I’m in a few clubs and orgs, and I thought I’ve been doing better, especially since I started Zoloft last week.

Today it snowed so hard they cancelled classes. Now I’m just…sad. Like it’s a reminder of how depressed I really am without all these things in my life. I haven’t even eaten or showered today and it’s about to be past breakfast. I’m just moping and wallowing in my misery, because under my busy life I’m lonely. I don’t have a partner or a ton of friends outside of superficial club friends. I’ve invited people to hang out but the repeated rejections have made me isolate myself. I go to therapy weekly, and I’m on meds. But those depressed days still get me.

i want a hug. I wish my schedule wasn’t a coping mechanism from the problems in my head.