Something might be wrong with me.

No seriously.

When people ask me ' why are you still single' , my answer is always the same because it is true. "It's probably my fault because i don't understand men" ,is my response.

As a young girl growing up in rural kenya like I did, the greatest threat to your future was a boy. Talking to them or entertaining them in any capacity. And me being the rule follower, i took this advice to heart and even took it a notch higher by intentionally hating them.

I am a young adult now, happy i didn't let anyone ruin my future ( i passed school and doing a good course) but i cannot talk to men for the life of me. I hate saying this but i still see them as a threat to my future still. But i am attracted to them and i hope to find a partner to create a family and build together with in this future i keep fearing for.

Is there a crash course i can take? It also doesn't help that i am an avoidant. Najua mmechoka na hizi maswali but naomba mkue tu kind.