Has anyone cried over lost pokemon?

About 3 years ago i lost 10 years worth of pokemon and it made me quit playing the main series video games. I had pokemon from diamond all the way to shield and every event pokemon in between, i had every one of my teams from each game, all of the "year of legends" promo pokemon from usum, and all the event mystery gifts. and i had it all in pokemon home until my switch died. my nintendo account was one that was made with the nintendo network id, and i didnt have the email/ information from it and all of my pokemon went down the drain. i had my first shiny, first team, first everything on there. and i still hate myself for loosing it to this day. i still play pokemon go, but with recent talk of new ownership i was thinking of transferring them all to Pokémon home, but when i looked at my current nintendo account and the empty boxes in that home account i didnt feel like transferring anything anymore.