Has my former "job hopping" completely screwed my chances of getting a job?

For context: I started my recruiting career in 2014 at a major staffing agency. I was there for 2.5 years, but I got burnt out so the next 2 years (on my resume) look like a mess -- I was spending 5-12 months in different jobs like: client support, training & development, marketing & social media, and then some titles were like freelance recruiting. It wasn't until 2018 that I got another real, full-time job, but it was in sales and only for 1 year. Then, I had my first full-time job BACK in recruitment for 2 years, left to go back to staffing for 5 months, and then got recruited by a major tech company - thinking that was my home! - only to get impacted by the tech layoffs in 2023.

Now I'm feeling hopeless, helpless, and directionless.

I had my reasons, one or the other, for all the "job hopping", but it also comes down to this: I just wasn't sure what I wanted, and all of the twists and turns made sense to me at the time, and it gave me the chance to try out things and see what I liked vs. didn't like.

It's so unfair, and in my opinion, unrealistic, to expect that a 21 year graduating college is supposed to know EXACTlY what they want to do, pick 1 job and stay there for years. Or, at least, have a few jobs, but just stay for several years at each.

Now I'm in my mid-30s, I feel like I'm not even considered a "senior recruiter" because though recruitment was the main theme, it hasn't always been so consistent.

Have I completely fucked myself over? The feedback I'm getting from some hiring managers is that I've been freelancing too much, so I'm sure that's a risk. Oh, I also had "started my own business" while I was recovering from the tech layoffs, but it wasn't even a real business, it was just me consulting with clients and trying to make ends meet because I needed to work. And now I feel like that looks like a liability to companies too, because they might think I'm just going to want to start a business again, but I have NO interest in being a business owner

I genuinely, truly, just want to find a recruiter job in the creative industry (because that's my personal and professional experience and passion) and GROW at a company. I want to stay somewhere for the next 5 years... but now I feel like it's too late for me and that I screwed myself over.

Thanks for listening and taking the time to read this.

Thoughts?