How we feel about the song so?

I love this song smmm but i wanted to see how the community liked it? But anyways heres the song meaning

The lyrics are about the protagonist feeling very sad and wanting to express their sadness to someone. They feel empty and dirty, and they blame their partner for making them feel sick. However, they also admit that they kind of enjoy feeling this way. The protagonist is asking how they can show their partner just how sad they are.