different experience while solo traveling

let me start off by saying that i (23f) am no stranger to travel. i’ve gone on several solo trips this year that have been nothing short of magical and idyllic. however, the trip i’m currently on has been the complete opposite experience.

i’m traveling for a month in italy right now. i’ve been spending roughly 3-5 days in each city, and i have about a week left of my trip. let’s just say i could not be more ready to go back home.

it’s weird because i was really looking forward to my time here. after all, it’s my first time in europe. so, thinking about my time in italy kept me up at night. it was all i could think about. and once i finally got here, i felt so…indifferent. it didn’t really matter to me one way or another what i did or saw. i’m also getting so tired of constantly meeting new people in the hostels i’m staying at. i’d rather just keep to myself at this point.

having these feelings has made me wonder if i’m depressed or if something is wrong with me. i usually love travel, having new experiences, and meeting new people. i don’t necessarily feel sad, though. i just wanna be in my own company, read a book, or cook myself a nice meal without the incessant feeling that i SHOULD be taking advantage of my time in italy.

i guess i felt called to post this to see if anyone else here has ever had a similar experience? do you ever have a trip that isnt necessarily bad, but you would just prefer to be back home?