So, trans folks who still haven't transitioned yet, what are your reasons?

So I do want to transition eventually I think (MtF) but I can't rn. I'm genderfluid but my parents are extremely transphobic and anti-LGBTQ everything, plus I live in a really conservative country.

However I know there are some trans folks who would rather not transition at all. If so, what exactly are your reasons? I'm still on the fence about taking E, I'm way too bulky and big and have a long history of taking meds, the last thing I'd wanna do is take even more meds for the rest of my life. But still I am curious about y'all!