I have started being mute and using a text reader robot voice to talk for me everywhere I go bc voice training for years has gotten me nowhere. Any advice helps

This isn’t really a question more so an ask for advice bc I’m at a loss.

I’ve been on T almost 4 years. And honestly it didn’t do much for my voice. All it did was make me sound like a female chain smoker who has smoked heavily for a few decades. So I still sounded very female, just with a fucked up throat. Or like how women on steroids sound. Or kinda like how Elliot page sounds. The reason I talk in a weird grizzly bear voice is bc I’d rather talk in any voice in the world than that Elliot page voice. But even the grizzly bear voice sounds feminine. I’ve been trying to voice train for years and I’ve never been able to achieve a cis male sound.

Any advice? In the meantime I’ll keep using the AI robot voice to talk for me because the dysphoria is too high to talk. I still hear a woman when I talk. I think testosterone only thickened my vocal cords but didn’t lengthen them much, so anatomically wise, the odds are not in my favor when it comes to my voice goal