F20. Me and my sis got kinda sexually abused/groomed by our dad when we hit 18 years and now he left I kinda began spiraling here on Reddit..

Soooo.. basically what the title said. Our dad made us sleep naked in one bed and sometimes joined too. He said that's just what sisters would do. Now our parents left us maybe half a year ago so we're living alone. But the memory still stays and I have been thinking about it. Now when our parents left kinda lost, I began looking up porn here on Reddit. And I began spiraling deeper in some pretty weird subreddits. Idk why I do that honestly. like, just a few months ago I would probably never have thought I would EVER watch any porn on the internet but now I am on here in some pretty weird subreddits. Idk why that happened, ngl. And honestly idk why I am sending this hahahh just had to share it with people ig