I love my small chest/butt and being skinny after hating it for so long

Well I’m 18 so Idk if it was “long” but anyway I had body dysmorphia towards my body for a while. I wanted to be thick and have big boobs and a butt. I tried to overeat and would wear push up bras and even search up procedures to “fix it”. It was mainly because of the person grooming me liking thick girls. Now I’m starting to like my body a bit more. And yes I do have a rectangle body. I just wish I was shorter. I’m starting to want my chest to be smaller actually because it looks proportionate with my body but weird to me (My body is narrow and I’m 32A) But yk what isn’t going to go away?? My BDD surrounding my face 😭